HAPPY PILL bla bla bla :)
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Jul 20, '08 9:47 PM
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a
lot of questions. i mean, a lot.
i really have no
idea why i act mature and not feel good about it. sensing that it's a
bit weird considering i am the youngest of the three yet i act as the eldest.
is it merely the fact that i am being responsible in a wrong time? at this very
moment, there's an urge in me having a sudden change of
heart. just last week, i can't find satisfaction in anything i do. the hell
with it is that another week welcomes me. and the spot of alcohol in my life
isn't even striking me anymore. too bad. it's sucks cause going out sober last
night wasn't my plan for the night and it isn't the same joy for me, sorta the
HAPPY PILL feeling that i was looking out for. now, i might have to find
alternatives for me to have fun without having a sip of liquor. wtf. what would
those be?
another view of my
life wanders through my mind together with a friend's advice which states that
you wouldn't feel happy of loving a person if you yourself isn't complete. but
the wow of it is-- where can i buy some? and how much for a monthly supply of those?
what a shame! at this very jiffy, i've been craving for a week stay by the
beach. just to relax and doesn't have to worry about anything at all. and
now, everything's okay. i'll try to lay off alcohol this week. try i say.
difficult as it may seem. i am not feeling good about whatever things
right now. so, i have to do some deep thinking, stupid as it is but
it does really help me. *meditate mode*
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